I will admit that my eating wasn't 100% perfect this week but I put on 2lbs. 2 effing pounds. Yes, weight loss is not my main goal right now, but seeing the number on the scale today really ticked me off. I'm hoping to hear back from my trainer to find out if it was muscle. I'm doubting it though. I hate weighing myself.

Good news is that I'm HURTING from my workouts this week. That's a good and bad sign. It means I'm out of shape compared to 2 months ago but good because I clearly worked hard enough for it to hurt for 3 days. I've promised myself that I'm going to do some working out at home and maybe do some quick bursts of cardio. I HATE running since it hurts my shins. I love walking but walking on the treadmill is boring as hell. Walking outside is just out of the question since it's fall and it rains almost every day.

Here is my promise for the weekend:

I promise to do a minimum of 30 minutes of strength training every day. I will jog on the spot for 1 minute on 1 minute off for 20-30 minutes as well.  

I will report back every day and let you know what I did!

I took quite some time off from working out and eating right. I've been kind of quiet about why I quit. I honestly didn't think I was going to go back to working out. I was actually starting to think that I would grow to be okay with being obese. My trainer, Anna kindly asked to meet up and talk about how things were going. So we met up and she and I decided that we will change up our workout routine and not focus so much on weight loss. We're focusing on getting my core and back strength up to where it should be.

Here is the truth, I stopped working out because I just couldn't handle the back pain any longer. I've had back issues since I was a young and being as heavy as I am now, it makes the pain worse. SO, Anna and I are only doing 2 days/week and that will help with my future goals of getting thin again.

We had our first session in over 2 months. It was hard. Not like it was before. She gave me some 'homework' to do at home so that I can get into shape faster. I'm also going to start tracking my food and see how I do.

Early this morning my Mum headed home after being here for 3 weeks. It was great to have her here and D really had a great time with his Nana. He is going to be SO upset when he wakes up and sees that she isn't here. She had to be at the airport for 6am and we didn't want to wake him up. It's going to be very hard to see him upset in the morning.

I'm really bad with saying Good-Bye. I'm a very emotional person so tears happen very easily for me. I've been good the last 2 times I've had to say Good-Bye to family. I didn't cry when my brother left our place in January after visiting for 2 weeks. Well, not in front of him. I did cry later on. Today when I had to say Good-Bye, I was able to hold back to tears until she was gone. I know that if I started to cry that she would start to cry and that would just be awful. So I made it through the Good-Bye without any tears. Lord knows I wanted to just break down and cry. God, I'm even crying right now.

I'm really going to miss her. It's going to be good to get back into a regular routine again though. it's going to be incredibly quiet around here though. I already miss her.

Okay, I'm going to shut up and stop crying now...

My mother leaves on Monday so I will be back to blogging regularly again.

Things around here and slowing down again. I've been forced to take a few days of rest. A few weeks ago I pushed myself too hard during yoga and hurt my wrist. I wasn't aware that I had actually hurt myself. I woke up one morning with a really sore wrist and thought that I just slept on it wrong. It kept hurting but of course I didn't go to the doctor. I was convinced that it was nothing and it would just go away in no time. It's been like 2 weeks and the pain has just gotten worse.

Thursday, I finally had enough and went to the doctor. I was sure he was just going to tell me it was nothing and to just let it rest and eventually it would go away. Sadly, that was not what he said. It turns out I have an irritated and pinched nerve. He's put me on anti-inflammatory meds to help with the pain and whatnot. He's also sending me for physio therapy. I was sent for an X-ray to rule out any kind of bone fractures of anything else. I need to wear this ugly splint on my wrist/arm. It's incredibly annoying to wear and I actually feel fairly dumb with it on. Worst part of this all are the meds I'm on. I have to take them twice a day and it's given me such an awful stomach ache. I hate taking them. I spent a whole night awake from the pain and I've felt ill for days now. I'm not a fan of medication. I like to avoid pills whenever possible.

Good news is, I'm getting back to the gym next week. I spoke with my trainer, Anna, and we've worked out a plan that we are going to avoid weight loss and focus on core and back strength. My back issues are because of lack of strength so we're going to work on that instead of trying to lose weight. I'm going to work on weight loss on my own. I'm not in a HUGE hurry to lose a bunch on weight. I'd rather focus on getting into shape so that working out will come easier to me and cause me less pain.

Since having a baby 4 years ago, I haven't had a good nights sleep. It isn't because D keeps me up. He does still wake up once at night but always before 1am and we are usually still awake. No, my issues are with waking up all on my own or just wake up very tired and very sore.

I recently got prescribed sleeping pills in hopes that it would help me sleep through the night. I have yet to be able to sleep through the night. It's so frustrating. I've tried yoga, meditation and pretty much anything anyone has recommended. Good thing about the sleeping pills is that I don't wake up tired anymore. Well, not really. For the first 10 minutes after I wake up I walk around like a zombie (haha). Bad thing is, I'm having a hard time waking up before 10am. That doesn't really work when you have a child that likes to wake up between 7 and 8 am.

Send me your suggestions for sleeping through the night. I will try ANYTHING!

Today my mother and I spent a good part of the day just her and I. We went to Square One mall around noon and walked around a bit and then got some yummy lunch at Moxie's. We shared a HUGE appetizer since we weren't hungry enough to get our own meals. After lunch we went and looked around Old Navy and found Dechlan's Halloween costume. We picked up a shell for my Blackberry and then got some coffee and headed home!

Once we got home we played with D a bit and then took him swimming. It was really fun to get some more activity in today. It was a great day. Just amazing.

On another note, I just love seeing Dechlan and my mother together. Like I had mentioned in one of my previous posts, it has been 3 years since the last time she has been here. Yes, we used Skype a bit, but daily phone calls are a must between my mother and I. He loves talking to her.

Well, when she got into the car, I was very ready for him to cry and act out or even play shy. He acted like she was just someone he saw every other day. He is just in love with her. He has been attached to her since she got here. It's so great seeing them together.

It's sad that my father doesn't really have much to do with D. He loves his 3 Grand-Parents. I love that he has people other than his parents that have his back and love him more than anything. It warms my heart.

Today is the day!!! My mother will be landing in Toronto in just under 1 hour and I'm beyond excited!! We have a little something something planned for her tonight. We are making her a nice dinner and have cake and gifts. Her birthday was 1 week ago and we are having a delayed party for her. Dechlan is beyond excited that his Nana is going to be here for 3 whole weeks. He's even more excited about all the gifts she is bringing him. My mother spoils him rotten. I'm okay with that. It's what Grand-parents do best.

This isn't going to be a super long post about be blabbing on about how excited I am. I am going to keep it short and just say that I probably won't be posting much for the next 3 weeks. I might post pictures and quick blurbs about her stay.

SO, with that said, I'm off to pick her up!