I woke up this morning to a sweet text message from a blocked number saying ' You're beautiful, remember to tell yourself that every day and smile. You're beautiful when you smile' Yes, some people might find it weird, I found it really sweet. I obviously don't know who this person is but it made my day.

So remember, YOU'RE beautiful and wonderful and amazing. And don't forget to smile today.

Happy Friday, Everyone!!

When it's cold and wet outside, I love comfort food. My favourite comfort food ever is a perogie dish that one of my mothers ex boyfriends made all the time.

It's kind of cold out and threatening to rain/snow today. Even though I'm exhausted today, I think I'm going to make it anyway. I never got the recipe from him, but I watched him make it so many times that I'm able to make it with my own spin.

Here's how I make it

1KG bag perogies of your choice. I use frozen, potato, bacon and onion.
1 rasher of bacon. I use reduced salt.
1 white onion
1 can of cream of mushroom soup. I use low fat
A few tablespoons of milk

Boil as many perogies as you want. I make a big batch.. While the perogies are boiling, I dice up bacon and fry it until it's really crispy. With a slatted spoon, remove the bacon from the fat and put it in a bowl to cool. Pour the bacon fat into a bowl. Dice onion if you life onion. If not, don't use it. Cook the diced onion in a bit of bacon fat. Once translucent, move to a bowl and cover with tin foil. Once the perogies float, strain them. Heat a pan on Medium-High, put some bacon fat in the pan and put one layer of perogies. Turn them to get both sides a lightly brown. Whisk the mushroom soup with 2 or 3 tablespoons of milk to thin the soup to make the sauce. Add it to a sauce pan and heat until warm.

Drizzle sauce over perogies, sprinkle bacon and onion. enjoy!

Dechlan has his physical yesterday. He of course had to get vaccinations which went over so well. And thankfully are the last ones until he is 12 years old.

He's a tall and skinny boy. He's 42.5 inches tall and 42lbs. He's extremely healthy too. Everything is good. Some of his development is behind but we knew that. We're waiting for his appointment with the  development specialist in June.

We've decided to NOT send him to school for the rest of the year. We kind of want to hear what the doctor has to say. Plus he keeps having accidents. It's getting a bit frustrating for all of us.

But all in all, he's doing great.

I'm digging it!! My reading list is so much easier to use. I'm a happy girl! Usually new layouts means something awful.

Anyway, I like it. I like it a lot!

This is by far my favourite recipe. I make it almost every week. It's healthy and yummy and no can tell that it's vegan. The guys that Nick works with LOVE it. 

Vegan Blueberry Loaf/Cupcakes

1/2 cup soy margarine
1/2 cup unsweetened apple sauce
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 cup sugar
2 cups flour
1 tablespoon baking powder
1 teaspoon vanilla
1/2 cup soymilk
2 cups  frozen blueberries

Preheat oven to 350 F

Mix margarine, sugar, applesauce, vanilla and soy milk in 1 bowl until well combined.
Sift flour, salt, baking powder in a small bowl. Add to wet ingredients. combine until no lumps are left. Add blueberries.

Bake in loaf pan for 1 hour or until knife/skewer comes out clean.

For cupcakes, fill paper holders 3/4 of the way. Bake for 35 minutes.

I've recently come to the realization that I'm tired of hating myself. Yes, I'm fat. Being fat isn't who I am. Being fat is just what I look like. It doesn't change my personality. I'm still the same person I was 5 years ago before I got fat.

I came to this conclusion when I was working out and working out and working out, eating healthy and doing everything right and I still wasn't losing weight. I was hating seeing myself in the mirror and clothes shopping.

I've decided that I will not spend hours every day working out. The only time I ever saw improvement was when I was working out 3 hours per day. That isn't realistic. I can't do that every day.

Yes, I will watch what I eat. Yes, I will do some sort of physical activity. No, I will not weigh myself all the time. I will not focus on the number. I will focus on being happy. I'm done hating myself.

I'm healthy. There isn't anything really wrong with me. PCOS started before I was fat. I'm still beautiful. My husband thinks I'm beautiful. I deserve to be happy. I will gain self-esteem and confidence.

I owe it to myself.

Since I'm lactose intolerant, I don't drink milk. I hate using milk in food and baking because it always makes me sick. I've always used soy milk in everything but even that makes my stomach hurt a bit. I love to use soy milk in baking.

Last week, I was going to make some vegan blueberry loaf for Nick to take to work. Metro was out of soy milk so I bought Almond milk. FYI, not a good replacement in that recipe. It turned out kind of gross.

 Anyway, they don't sell small containers of almond milk so I had to buy the bigger container. I'm not one for wasting things so I let Dechlan try it. He LOVES IT. Nick tried it and HE loves it. I haven't tried it straight but I did try it in my coffee today and it was really good. I got the vanilla flavour and it's a great replacement for coffee creamer. Less calories too.

We've decided not to buy regular milk now. We're all stuck on almond milk. The great part is that it has a lot of calcium in it. It's perfect.

Have you tried almond milk?

I'm not going to go into specifics, yet again. I know certain people read my blog and LOVE to spin my words to people, which is why I'm not being more specific.

Anyway, things around here have been very stressful. Monday we got some very serious news that involves Nick's career. We don't know when, but it looks like Nick is facing a Medical Release. I'm not going to say why. We don't know when it will happen.

Now we're looking at our options. We're looking at moving to either BC or Alberta. We're doing our research as to where we can afford to live, where has more work, etc. I know my friends and family have strong opinions as to where we should move. Sadly, we're not talking personal requests as to where we will move. We have to base our decision on where we can make a similar amount of money we are making now and be able to afford rent etc. You know, the basics.

The good news is that, CF might pay for Nick to get some training once he's released. No idea what he will want to do yet, but we have atleast 5 months to think about it.

So, that is all I can really say right now. That's really all I can say without getting angry and venting. Long story.

I want to start off with saying that I've been a very bad blogger lately. I've been slacking on blogging.


We made so much progress this week. We finally got Dechlan's birth certificate in the mail. We got down to the OHIP office to get his new OHIP card.

We've booked an appointment for his vaccinations and to get a referral for a hearing test. We have an appointment in June with a pediatric specialist. She will basically testing him to see if he only has a speech delay or if it's something more. From what I hear, she's one of the best doctors in her field in the GTA so I'm pretty happy about that. She suggested that we see about speech therapy from the Early Years programs. We have an appointment booked and hopefully they can see him. He's at the age where the only people that might help him is the Peel School Board.

Speaking of school, we're registering Dechlan for school on Monday!! As many people know, the reason he hasn't started school was A) His lack of potty training. B) His speech delay.


Now that I know the school will be able to help him, we're ready to send him to school.


On a very happy note, Dechlan is officially daytime potty trained!! I'm not sure how to get him to be nightime trained but I'm sure it will come.

Well, it looks like Spring is here. I say that with a slight giggle in my voice. We never really got Winter. Whenever it snowed, it would be gone later that day or by morning. The longest the snow stuck around was probably less than a week. We had a very green Christmas.

What makes me say that Spring is here is the fact that most of next week we will be sitting at temperatures of +12-16 degrees Celsius. For me, that is sweater weather! Earlier in the week, I actually did go out in just my sweater and it was nice and balmy.

So, goodbye Winter and Hellooooo Spring!

When you're with someone for a long time, things get routine. Things can get boring and sometimes you don't appreciate each other as much as you did in the beginning.

This week, N did something for me that really made our marriage feel new again. Honestly, it kind of made our whole relationship feel new. People I'm close to know that N and I have been going through some hard stuff. Things are good now though. Long talks and a special gift really made things change.

It feels like we've fallen in love all over again. We're back to doing all the small things we did for each other back in the early days. We're back to our old selves.

Do you believe you can fall in love all over again? Even after years of being together?